The morning after the goodbye. I wake and walk to the dim kitchen. The water in the glass passes through my throat. Something that will not dry stays in my chest. Even so, the morning keeps searching for you beside me. The space for two still rests in this room. I cannot put my love into past tense. The room fills with you. I laugh with friends and on the walk home my voice falls silent. I do not want to open the door of my room. The finger that promised "no more contact" opens the screen again. If I could hate you I could sleep. Your voice still keeps me awake. The word "I love you" cracks small and blurs here. I am too lonely to celebrate your happiness yet. Just for today, may I cry. Still loving, I am here in this morning.
me ga samete
kicchin made aruku
koppu no mizu
nodo wo tooru
kawakanai nanika ga
mune ni nokoru
sayonara wa chanto
futari de eranda
sorenanoni asa ga
anata wo sagasu
futaribun no
kuukan ga aru
suki datta janakute
suki no mama de iru
sayonara no ato mo
heya ga anata de michiru
suki datta tte ietara
owareru noni
suki no mama de
asa wo mukaeru
tomodachi to atte
heikina kao shite
waratta ato de
kaerimichi ga omoi
hitori ni naru to
koe mo denai
heya no doa wo
aketakunai
mou renraku shinai
sou kimeta yubi ga
mata gamen wo hiraku
yowai watashi
suki datta janakute
suki no mama de iru
onaji uta ga
chigau kotoba de kikoeru
wasuretain janai
oboeteitai
suki no mama wa
warui koto ja nai yo ne
kirai ni naretara
nemureta noni
anata no koe ga
mada nemurasenai
suki tte iu koe ga
chiisaku kasurete
koko de nijimu
suki datta to
ienai mama
suki no mama de
asa wo mukaeru
anata no shiawase wo
yorokobu ni wa
watashi wa mada
samishisugite
kyou dake wa
naite ii yo ne
suki no mama de
kono asa ni iru