Sunday morning. The room is full of soft light. No alarm. My body just woke up on its own. I start the laundry and make coffee. A regular day off. But for some reason I catch myself fixing my hair in the mirror. I am not meeting anyone. The shampoo I picked yesterday smells like something they would use. The new mug I bought is their favorite color. The moment I realized that my face went hot. Clothes sway on the balcony. Sunlight pools on the floor. I open my phone and almost type their name. I stop myself. Nothing has even started between us. I was just living carefully one day at a time. But everything I reach for has already turned their color. Since Friday night I have been wondering when I will see them next. What scares me is not being rejected. It is losing this feeling. But when I looked in the mirror I was smiling softer than yesterday. I do not need to name this yet. In the Sunday light this room slowly becoming your color is my favorite place in the world right now.
nichiyou no asa
hikari ga yawarakai
yasumi no hi yukkuri me ga sameta
araamu nante kaketenai noni
sentakuki mawashite koohii ireru
yuge no mukou ni kimi no kao ukande
yotei nante nani mo nai noni
kagami no mae de kami wo naoshiteru
kinou eranda shanpuu
kimi ga sukisou na nioi datta
kizuita shunkan
hoppe ga atsuku naru
kimiiro mooningu
hitori no heya nanoni
dokoka ni kimi no kehai ga suru
eranda mono zenbu kimi ni tsunagatteku
kono kimochi ni namae
mada tsukenakute ii
sukoshizutsu kimiiro ni natte iku
beranda ni hoshita fuku ga yureru
sumaho wo hiraite tojite mata hiraku
kimi no namae sagasisou ni natte yameta
itsuka kono heya ni
kimi no kutsu ga narabu hi kuru kana
mada nani mo hajimattenai noni
kimiiro mooningu
aitai tte wake ja nai noni
itsu no ma ni ka kimi no hou e
te ga nobiteta
zenbu kimi no iro ni somatteku
namae wo tsukenai kono mama de
mou sukoshi koko ni itai
tsugi ni aeru no wa itsu darou
zutto kangaeteru jibun ga iru
kowai no wa kirawareru koto yori
kono kimochi ga kawaru koto
kagami ni utsutta watashi wa
yawarakaku waratteta
kimiiro mooningu
nichiyou no asa ga suki ni natta
kono hikari no naka de
kimi wo omou jikan ga itoshii
nani mo isoganakute ii
kyou mo tada kimiiro no mama
kono heya de waratte iyou