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誕生日おめでとうを送れない

Tanjoubi Omedetou wo Okurenai

Liner Notes

Today is my ex's birthday. I never marked it on the calendar, yet my body remembers. Last year I baked a cake. I was bad at it, but you were happy. We blew out the candles together. This year I can do nothing. I open the message box, close it, open it again. "Happy birthday" - I never knew that tiny eight letters could feel so heavy. If I send it, you'll think I'm clinging. If I don't, you'll think I'm cold. But really, how you'll take it doesn't matter at all; I just want to wish for your happiness. In the end, I sent nothing, and the date changed. On the other side of it, I murmured only in my heart, may you be smiling. A blessing that reaches no one fades quietly away in my chest.

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Lyrics (Japanese)

今日はきみの誕生日カレンダーに印なんてつけてなかったのにからだが覚えてる去年はケーキを焼いた下手くそだったけどよろこんでくれた一緒にろうそくを吹き消した今年はなにもできないメッセージを開いて誕生日おめでとうでも閉じてまた開いてたった8文字がこんなに重いなんて誕生日おめでとう言えないまま時間がすぎていく送ったら未練があると思われる送らなかったら冷たいと思われるでも本当はどう思われるかなんてどうでもよくてただきみの幸せを願いたいだけ結局なにも送らずに日付が変わったその向こうできみが笑ってますように心のなかでだけつぶやいた誰にも届かない祝福が消えていく胸のなかで静かにしぼんでいく誕生日がおわってもこの気持ちはおわらない誕生日おめでとう言えないまま今日が終わっていくあのころみたいに笑って言いたかったでももうその権利がないろうそくの火をふたりで消した日が遠くなっていく今日はきみの誕生日

kyou wa kimi no tanjoubi karendaa ni shirushi nante tsukete nakatta noni karada ga oboeteru kyonen wa keeki wo yaita hetakuso datta kedo yorokonde kureta issho ni rousoku wo fukikeshita kotoshi wa nanimo dekinai messeeji wo hiraite tanjoubi omedetou demo tojite mata hiraite tatta hachi moji ga konna ni omoi nante tanjoubi omedetou ienai mama jikan ga sugite iku okuttara miren ga aru to omowareru okuranakattara tsumetai to omowareru demo hontou wa dou omowareru ka nante dou demo yokute tada kimi no shiawase wo negaitai dake kekkyoku nanimo okurazu ni hizuke ga kawatta sono mukou de kimi ga waratte masu you ni kokoro no naka de dake tsubuyaita dare ni mo todokanai shukufuku ga kiete iku mune no naka de shizuka ni shibonde iku tanjoubi ga owatte mo kono kimochi wa owaranai tanjoubi omedetou ienai mama kyou ga owatte iku ano koro mitai ni waratte iitakatta demo mou sono kenri ga nai rousoku no hi wo futari de keshita hi ga tooku natte iku kyou wa kimi no tanjoubi

Translation

Today is your birthday I never marked it on the calendar yet my body remembers Last year I baked a cake I was bad at it, but you were happy Together we blew out the candles This year I can do nothing I open the message screen "happy birthday" but I close it, open it again that tiny eight letters so heavy, how can that be "Happy birthday" unable to say it time slips by If I send it you'll think I'm clinging If I don't send it you'll think I'm cold but really how you'll take it doesn't matter at all I just want to wish for your happiness In the end I sent nothing and the date changed On the other side of it may you be smiling only in my heart I murmured it A blessing that reaches no one fades away In my chest it quietly shrinks Even when the birthday ends this feeling won't end "Happy birthday" unable to say it today comes to an end Like back then I wanted to say it smiling but I no longer have that right The day we blew out the candle flame together grows distant Today is your birthday