At odd moments, your pet phrases come out of me. "Oh well." "It'll work out." "That works too." When we were together I thought nothing of it, but after the breakup I realized: you've settled inside me to stay. When a friend pointed out, "you've been saying it that way lately," it struck me. I want to erase them but can't. Even when I try to change my words, before I know it they come out again. Even though you're gone, fragments of you keep remaining inside me. Whether that's dear or sad, I no longer know. Will it fade with time? Or will I live my whole life borrowing your words? Even asking the self in the mirror, no answer comes back. In your words I murmur "oh well." In that moment, I remember you again.
futo kizuita
kimi no kotoba
maa ii ka
nantoka naru
sore mo ari da ne
futoshita toki ni
kimi no kuchiguse ga dete shimau
tsukiatte ita koro wa
nantomo omowanakatta noni
wakarete kara kizuita
watashi no naka ni
kimi ga sumitsuite iru
kimi no kuchiguse ga utsutta
keshitai noni kesenai
kotoba wo kaeyou to shite mo
kizukeba mata dete kuru
kimi ga inaku natte mo
kimi no kakera ga nokoru
sore ga itoshii no ka
kanashii no ka mou wakaranai
tomodachi ni iwareta
saikin sono iikata suru yo ne tte
hatto shita
watashi ja nai watashi ga iru
kagami wo mite mo
kotae wa kaette konai
kimi no kotoba de
maa ii ka tte tsubuyaku
jikan ga tateba
usureru no darou ka
soretomo isshou
kimi no kotoba wo karite ikiru
kimi no kuchiguse ga utsutta
keshitai noni kesenai
kotoba wo kaeyou to shite mo
kizukeba mata dete kuru
kimi ga inaku natte mo
kimi no kakera ga nokoru
sore ga itoshii no ka
kanashii no ka mou wakaranai
mata kimi wo omoidasu
kuchiguse no tabi ni
modoritai wake ja nai
demo wasurerarenai
watashi no kotoba no naka ni
kimi ga ikite iru
sore wo mitomeru shika nai
kimi no kuchiguse ga utsutta
mou kesanakute ii
kore mo watashi no ichibu
kimi ga kureta mono
kimi ga inaku natte mo
kimi no kakera ga nokoru
sore wo kakaete
watashi wa aruite iku